Sleepwalk......

So it's come to this......

Well, I have so much to say, but I've been processing so much in my brain, I'm almost too impatient to even write it down. The past 6 or so months have been very hard and interesting for me. Self-doubt, turning 25, living with my boyfriend, deciding not to live with my boyfriend, and the list goes on and on.....

My family came to visit me last weekend. It's getting harder and harder to be away from them every day. My neice and nephew are getting older and my brother and I don't talk as much as I would like. And with my parents getting older its hard, too. I worry about my dad more than anyone. Being daddys little girl, I can't help it. He's my dad, my hero.

Lately I've been listening to a song and the first line says, "There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week." How appropriate. I've been very held back in things I want and want to say this week. It's hard when your somewhere completely different mentally than you are physically. I feel like I'm out in space, just going over and over things in my head-conflicts, questions, doubts......Am I making this too difficult? Probalby, I always do.

With that said, I've said enough.