Huggin' trees

So I've been laying in bed listening to the rain fall and I started thinking........thinking about nature, the Earth, and the way we as a society live our lives on the Earth. Now, I know the planet isn't shrinking, but the human race is getting larger and there's only so much room to go around. In fact, it seems like everywhere you go there's land being bought and sold, built on, drilled into, and everything else you can imagine. I mean, I hate to be all Jonie Mitchell, but they really did "pave paradise and put up a parking lot." Everywhere!

Okay, so where am I going with this? I know I might be exaggerating a little bit, but something has to be done about the evironment and how we're living in it. Even Al Gore made a documentary about it; okay more specifically, Global Warming. I know the car companies are coming out with the hybrids, and I must admit that I wouldn't mind having one, but what about all the rainforests that go down everyday and the smog, pollution, and even our waste? What are we going to do when we wake up and see the Earth wasted away?

Now, I don't think this is going to happen anytime soon, but with the knowledge we have of the world today (which is more than the days of the Industrial Revolution, which didn't make matters any better), we need to realize now, more than ever, that things need to change. I know some people out there are already trying to help, but not everyone. We need to focus on the big picture - the future. What will happen 20, 30, 100 years from now, I don't know, but judging by the state of things, its hard to have a sunny outlook. Will the fossil fuel supply be gone, will the polar ice caps melt, is this all make believe? I don't know, but get your recycling bins out, we have work to do!

The meaning of life..........

Do you ever wonder what you're doing? And I don't mean like when you walk into a room and forget what you were doing in that moment; I mean when you suddenly ask yourself, "What am I doing with my life?"

I asked myself that question today. As I was wiping off a counter at work like I've done so many times before, I kept thinking, "What am doing?" I know I live in Oklahoma and I go to school and work and thats about it, but sometimes I still can't believe I'm here. And even more, that I actually have goals for my life now. Before it seemed like I was just along for the ride and now I actually something to look forward to.

I think some of this stems from the fact that I've been thinking about marriage and relationships and things of that nature lately. Recently I went to my younger cousins bridal shower. It made me think about all the other people I went to school with, whether it was in high school or college, and how we're all at that age where one would typically graduate college and get married, start a career and possibly a family. And it seems like I'm the only one who's not settled down. Sometimes I wonder if this is the way its always going to be. If I'm just going to jump from town to town, maybe state to state, and leave a trail of past relationships behind. For some reason it seems like nothing is good enough for me.

This leads me to believe sometimes that I have "illusions of granduer". I've always been that way though, and I think its just something I'll always have to deal with. Although sometimes I do wish I had someone else to deal with things with; I want to know that I won't always have to deal with stress, money, friends, or life by myself. I know I won't; I know there's someone out there for everyone, hell maybe even more, but I just have to be patient and thats hard sometimes. I do take pride in my independence and it is nice not to be tied down, I'll just have to keep reminding myself to enjoy it.