It's been too long, dear friend.......

Wow, its been awhile. I've missed my blog.......

I feel that I have nothing to blog about. But then I start thinking........lately I've been fascinated by the idea of growing up. The other day my friend called me and told me she had lung cancer. Yeah, so is this part of the whole becoming an adult thing? Realizing that people aren't going to be around forever. Scary, but true.

Anyway, I recently got back together with my ex. Not what I expected, but I'm trying. Trying to realize that what I think want is not necessarily what I need; and that I was too quick to judge the first time around. It is nice to be with someone that doesn't leave you in their shadow to always wonder if you can get a commitment out of them. Or to just give you the respect you deserve. But then again it does scare me. To know that something might actually work out and I might have to settle down. Oh no! You know, I never planned on getting married till I'm 27. Seems odd I know, but I figured it gave me time to work and establish a career (if I had stayed on track with school) and then a couple years alone with my husband before I had children at 30. Nice plan, but nothing ever turns out the way you want it to and now I don't even really want kids. I know, freak of nature, a woman who doesn't want children. But I think it has more to do with where I'm at in my life right now. I'm not even finished school and I don't know, I have a niece and nephew, thats enough for me. But not for my mom.........

I've been thinking about trying yoga. I even bought a yoga workout video today. Woo hoo......doing anything athletic has never been one of my strong suits, but I'm noticing I can't eat whatever I want anymore. It takes my slower to burn than it used to. Bummer.....