Change is Inevitable

Oh, how things change......isn't change a strange thing? No, its not, but why is it so hard for us to do? I've always prided myself in being someone who was somewhat flexible with change, but right now I'm having a hard time. I just started a new job and I'm moving. Completely changing my comfort zones. It's almost as if I'm starting a new chapter in my life. And on top of that, my ex came to town over the weekend. It was nice, and seemed to be freakishly planned by some higher power. You see, now that I'm changing everything, I was yearning for something familiar. Which just happened to be him. Someone I could just pick up with where we left off, like he was never gone. Its nice, but confusing too. We aren't together becuase it just wasn't there, you know, being in love.....spending a lifetime together....all that, but then again; how can I say I shouldn't be with him if I can be hundreds of miles away from him and not talk to him and then feel like he never left when I do see him again. Its so strange how that works. I guess its almost a connection that can't be defined.

In other news, I went on a date about two weeks ago. I know this may not seem like a big deal, but it was a very good learning experience for me. With school and work, I don't really have time to put myself out there and take some initiative, but with this I did. It was fun, but not enough. It was nice though to realize that there are smart people out there that I can possibly be attracted to and can find me attractive as well. Sometimes its hard in a place where you don't really know a lot of people to find people you want to be surrounded by, but I think I've done ok so far.

So now I'm just continuing to make it through school, thankfully theres only two weeks of classes left and then finals. Hopefully I'll find a place to live soon, if not, maybe I'll go rugged and live in my car........wish me luck!